ahhhhh

it didnt fully hit me till now - im sick! ahhh! and ive gotta study for three exams for mon and tues!! ahhh! i cant do it, im trying so hard atm to concentrate but totally failing - oh cruel fate.

im so concerned about my math - if i cant get world issues thru my thick-snot-fillled- skull then how the hell am i going to get math?? blah.................72/% pop growth equals....?!?1 iremember the formula but i totally forgot wat to use it for?? ahh here we go, determine the doubling time of a countrys population.

now lets pop a few brain cells trying to figure out wat that means!

a..country...is doubling..in...growth...how many years...does it take to double? !

how to get % pop growth? that i dont get - this equation is WEIRD.....ah well.

gah, i dont even kno wat im supposed to kno - i wasnt there on the days he'd explain watz on the exams


grrrr--8!

hahaha i pulled off a funny. ....yeah, im sure i gotta kno these things - like the moticcations of terrorism...or i could guess, hopefully being said there's enuff mutiple choice on the exam to get me by

ozone depletion? oh joy....watz alternative development? o-o


Exam Question:

Explain alternate development:


u wouldnt! u wouldnt! did u even teach us that? XO


arghhhh =_- maybe luck will pull me thru ...or not? hahah usually ive relied on luck...hahah suddenly everything feels like a joke to me, itz funny. i cant help being in a good mood, the shine is shining and the air is clean as if it's spring


*as if*


hahaha, ....man waiting for the snow storm to drop on our hands. man i wanna go outside...i wanna smile and the air....sick tho =_= and gotta study

i wonder when im older...if ill regret something. maybe itz a defence thing, this ability to forget so easily. no i know it is, it must be - that must be how i deal with things. but i dont escape, not fully...there is always this bitterness in my heart...and as i grow, my eyes become more stern, and my mouth stiffer, and my hands clench more often. i get mad more often, but i forget and my mood changes just as easily. but it's still there. i remember only three or four years ago i had this light-heartedness about me that made me so naive about everything. when i started growing more bitter i didnt accept it at first, as ne1 wouldnt, but then i did, i did because i knew that that wont last. u take it, u deal wid it - u deal wid it as best as u can, and watever coems of it u try to make do. im looking att his from third-perspective...i personally, am not even sure if thats the case. if it werent for ppl telling me i was very different 3 yrs ago then i would not even believe it myself.

is the fact that i forget so easily wat continues to make me naive? maybe - i can let go of things pretty easily. woosh, to the wind, watch all my troubles and cares fly away, but i wont spare them an extra look....didnt u say this before? didnt u believe this before? yes...im so different, i change so often...my feelings..my tolerance. im always changing for someone who keeps still alot.

its amazing how i always find the resolve to do something when im sick, and then find myself unable to do that. maybe its a defense mechinism..and excuse. "oh i tried...but i was sick =( and now i dotn feel like it"

ah well stop feeling sorry for urself, little girl. 18 and still a lil girl...ahaha look where life takes u - or where u take ur life.

whichever, whenever...........*looks at world issues binder*

-_-? on to eng lit i guess?

trying saying this 5 times rlly fast - BAH-KTIN! make sure to spit when u do!


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